Intro

As I state above, this is my blog on my struggles and how I fight thru it all. (I'm explaining in two places to make my blog more accessible lol... still learning all this stuff) Let me introduce myself, I will not be using my real name, nor any real names of people included in this, meaning names will be changed so don't try to google them =] ) Ok, so the name I will be using is Dessy, it's a nickname I was given years ago. This is simply a blog on what I've been thru and what I am doing to combat them, my intensions being to provide myself an outlet and provide others who struggle in similiar ways with hope. I hope you enjoy and please no negative comments (this is a blog for hope!)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Coping with depression part II

 
Another thing I do to cope is photography. I have two cameras, they were both gifts (well one was a gift, one was my Dad’s and he gave me it to mess around with). I love the sound of the shutter on the older camera and I love the big lens. (in the video I am just rambling about the camera)I like to just walk around the neighborhood to take pictures. Something else I love and am pretty much obsessed with is Sudoku. I love it! That’s about it. Some people bake (which I also do but just for fun… I love to make fondant) It’s a matter of experimenting with things you love to do, with depression things you used to enjoy you don’t really enjoy them anymore. Try doing things you used to love or new things to find things that help you personally. There are so many things that people can do to cope. Also, stay in touch with your friends. Don’t let depression ruin friendships. Letting your illness get the best of you will only lead to regret. Take control of your own life, realize that there’s hope, even if you can’t see it, you will see it eventually. Peace out

Coping with depression part I




Ways to cope with depression. Sorry for the pauses
Disclaimer: there's no one way to cope with depression, exercise is not necessarily better than medication (I spoke wrong lol didnt mean to say it like that) and and just an exaggeration on the self injury part: Self injury is "any form of hurting your body INTENTIONALLY" ehhh i guess suicide would be self-injury just extreme.. i'm doing disclaimers cuz I dont feel like redoing the video AGAIN lol


Hey so this vlog is how to cope with depression video. There is no one way to cope and no cure. You can’t just say “Oh Im gonna be happy today yay no more depression” I had someone tell me that once and it got me mad. Everyone has their own preference, theres therapy, medication, hobbies, exercise, pretty much anything you can think of that is enjoyable and not harmful. I take medication once a day, I don’t see it as a big to-do, I take it at night, no one really knows I take it. Medication isn’t necessary but very helpful. Exercise is a proven equivalent to an anti-depressant, exercise 45 min about 4 days a week (I think this is what my therapist said). Its more homeopathic. One of my ways is to cross stitch. (in the video I am ranting about how I do cross-stitching and how I messed up the counted one…. ) Something else I have done, to avoid self-injury, which is somewhat common. Self-injury is like cutting, burning, etc. .. Any form of intentionally hurting your body. You just fold the paper, either diagnonally OR horizontally (not a mix of both), then you take scissors (childproof-scissors are a great idea), and you just cut in any random pattern, you don’t have to go in any particular direction, don’t cut the folds. I found this helps get out the urge, because you just took your urge to hurt yourself and turned it into a pretty little snowflake. Running out of time, Peace out for now =]

Friday, December 10, 2010

Vlog I promised you guys =D

 
Hey everybody, So I promised you all a vlog so here it is, this is technically my first vlog. Its gonna be a short one because my roommate is gonna be back soon. So I’ll just do a quick introduction of myself and why I started this vlog. I have a small introduction on my actual blog but I figured I should elaborate on it a little bit more and I started this blog mainly for the video. My name is Dessy. It’s of course not my real name but a few people do call me it. I have been diagnosed with Panic Disorder, Depression, and ADHD- unorganized type. Panic Disorder is a type of AD if u didn’t already know, the diff is u have more panic attacks or anxiety attacks in PD, u have some in AD but more in PD and more severe. I have been diagnosed with depression for about four years ish, anxiety for four-ish years. The diagnosis of anxiety of disorder came before the depression. I’ve been diagnosed with ADD for about 6 months… yeah late diagnosis… oh well. I’ll go into further detail in other vlogs/blogs later. Let’s see, what do I do with my time? Study… it’s pretty much my entire life right now because of finals. Why did I start this blog? I wanted to share how I find strength and the techniques I have used and the techniques other people I know have used. So I’ll be talking about how to cope with depression, anxiety, ADD/ADHD, some other things, how to deal with the sucky things in life like bullying and relationships that have gone south. I currently don’t have a bf, I don’t plan on having on anytime soon. I just got out of a relationship a few weeks ago month ago, he ended up being a huge jerk, so I’m gonna recover from that breakup and the stuff him and his friend did (see first blog), and…. Just share knowledge, answer questions about depression or anything I talk about or anything psychology related that you guys want answered. I am a psych major/ soc minor, so I do know some stuff about psychological disorders, and I have my own experience and what I’ve learned in school. Though my knowledge is limited, I do have resources to ask. And my therapist… I have a really good therapist, we have a very open and close relationship, I’m very thankful for her. What else do I do? Mainly why I got into the psychology field is…. Well before I was diagnosed I was planning on coming to university for an English major. Two things changed that, one is there are no jobs in the English field that I really wanted to do. When I was diagnosed, it started to interest me.. then continued to interest me… and my therapist really made an impact on me (she goes out of her way for her clients) She showed me the psychology field, she didn’t treat me as someone who was depressed, just as someone who was having a few issues. So that’s all for today, Peace out =]

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I never really know what to put as the title except if I know what I am gonna write about. Sure I could fill in the title after I write the blog but I don't. That's not how I do things, lol. I promised you guys a vlog and I will! I was working on it just as my room mate walked in and so I had to cut cuz she's reserved and so I try to be considerate and not be disruptive while she studies... which I should really do... and I have... just not as much as she does. I'm not a fan of studying. Anyways, this was just supposed to be me saying I will post the promised vlog soon!! I doubly promise LOL! I just made that up lol...

ok peace out for now

Thursday, December 9, 2010

things i said in chat that i felt i should post

life will be what it is. Nice people get hurt and good people r killed. thats just how life works. its terrible, I hate it but i cant change it. i can change what i can and i will accept the things i cant

nothing happens if u simply want it or so "ok i am deciding to be happy today" depression is evil like that. its like love, u wont find it until u stop looking. what helped me get my depression under control was go, ok yeah this sucks but look that over there is wonderful

 find something u love and go to that whenever something bad happens or u feel depressed, for me I have my dad's 35 mm camera

i had a roomie last yr that told me depression doesnt exist and that everyone with depression can simply choose to be happy but that isnt true, i've tried... it doesnt help at all

oh random fact, deaf people can have auditory hallucinations and blind people can have visual hallucinations.. i kid u not... its awesomely fascinating

someone else said : adding in a fun fact, when you take a deep breath there is a nerve or something on top of your diaphragm, when it is pressed on by your lungs it sends a signal to your brain to release calming chemicals

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Hate is a strong word

Ok so, I mainly started a blog to do videos (vblogs) but taken my room mate is trying to sleep, I can't do a video, but I PROMISE, I will eventually do a vblog (is it vblog or vlog?? lol)

Anyways, So, I'm tired of the hate in the world. I'm tired of people being harassed for being gay, transgender, black, jew, christian, etc etc etc. I mean, come on, I can't be the only person who is tired of all the hate going on! I, myself, am harassed for being nice... I mess up once and I get called a b**** and a w****... how is that right? Why do we call ouselves human kind, if we aren't kind? Why do we call ourselves the most evolved species if we kill each other for money, for no reason, or even just "to see how it feels"? Ok ok i haven't heard anyone call humans the most evolved species but I needed to get my point across.

In this era of texting and facebook, being mean to someone is easier because it is simply words on a screen. When you just write the words down, you don't see their reaction, you might get a response, but seeing the hurt in their eyes is a whole new level and without that people are more likely to keep hurting people thru texts and facebook. If you see the hurt, at least for me, I will think "oh shoot, should not have said that, let's not do that again!"

Off topic a little, I'm currently getting "yelled at" over facebook for asking a 'friend' what his status was about, cuz it sounded like someone passed away so I was gonna tell him sorry to hear about that but he started 'yelling' saying that I don't care and complaining about my sister who he dated. I really dislike it when people complain about my family to me.

I don't understand why people can be so hateful. Yes, people have different opinions. What especially bothers me is when people hate others for the way the others were born. Being gay is debatable if your born that way or aquired (I side with being born gay) but being born black or white or indian (etc) or mentally or physically disabled is not a choice. A soul does not say, "oh hey I wanna be born with brain damage because I want people to make fun of me and I want to have a difficult life" NO! You could argue that God (or whatever you believe in) makes you that way to prove to yourself and others about strength and equality etc. I kinda agree with this, but obviously ITS NOT WORKING!

I'm curious what the percentage of people are actually as hateful as we seem. It is true that the people who make the most noise get the most attention.

Ok, im tired and don't really know what else to say besides STOP THE HATE!... so bye until the next post...

First post: long story short =]

Ok so this first post will just be about things I've been thru. So, um... yeah 1st um... ok most recently I was harassed by my exboyfriend's friend. We will call him Chris and we will call my ex.... Todd. Ok so I called Todd because he had something of mine (pop tops... long story...) and long story short (hence the title), I ended up being called "a cutting little w****" and that I should go f myself. Obviously this made me upset. um... another thing that happened was years ago was I was ... well I will come back to that story because I'm not ready to post it...